Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Stuck in a maze.

Okay. Some things to clear up.


I spoke to Alex for the first time today, which went rather badly, because he was upset about the picture I painted of him in my last blog post.

Nothing I said was untrue, but he thought it was unfair that I didn't add the fact that he did offer to let me stay at his house in September despite everything, so he didn't literally kick me to the curb.

There is no way I'm going to stay at his house, and I'm sure he doesn't want that either, so I opted not to. My parents also offered to fly me home, but I needed to stay to finish my course and get college credit for being here, and I'm also not going to give up on my summer trip abroad to go home and cry under my covers, so naturally I opted out of that option too. I've HAVE options, they're just all shitty. So I chose the option that leaves me here in London, trying to have fun, being constantly reminded that he's not in my life anymore, but really trying to make the best of it. I figure it's the lesser of three evils.

The thing we don't agree on is that he feels there were two options:
1. Break up, right then, like it happened.
2. Him be deceitful and lie and pretend everything is normal and string me along and then break up with me in an email the second I get home on Sep 23, because he felt there were things about our personalities that weren't going to work out in the long term.

I feel there was more than than just those two options, including one where we maybe.. I dunno.. discussed things, but it's fundamentally something we won't agree on, and I can't really say more about it than that.

Basically, I'm just here to report how I'm feeling and what I'm doing. I never intended to make this a breeding ground for Alex-hate (even though it really wasn't; you guys are too nice) or make anyone choose sides or anything immature like that. I do still appreciate everything you've all said to me, though, so don't think I don't appreciate your stories of being able to relate, or enjoy your condolences and advice.

OKAY. FUN PART OF THE BLOG ABOUT MY DAY AND NOT ABOUT BOYS.

Today we went to Leeds castle!

I didn't really know what to expect, never having been to a castle and not knowing a single bit of history about this particular one, but it was BEAUTIFUL. The sprawling grounds, the willow trees, and lakes and the sheer old-ness of the buildings.
Inside was a little more modern than I'd expected, since people were living in it up until 2001 - the drawing rooms were particularly sort of 60's - like.

My favorite part was the library.. all the old books.. I made my friend take a picture of me in front of the book case, which I would show you now but it's still on my camera and I lent my friend Roy my USB cable in exchange for borrowing his battery charger because we have the same camera.

After we were finished exploring the castle we went and got food in the little courtyard, and then we went in the MAZE.

The maze was the best part of the whole day. It looked kind of small from the outside, but I was so wrong. It was huge, and confusing, and I got lost in it for a very long time. It was annoying because there was this sort of stone tower in the middle where the people who's already figured it out could stand and look out over the maze and yell faulty directions at us. Jerks. Haha.

Finally finally finally I made it to the center, and quickly became one of the people shouting out things that sent the rest of our classmates wandering in circles. xD

To get out, there was this creepy grotto beneath the tower that took you through a cavern underneath the maze, and I thought that was the coolest part honestly.

Next we watched a bird show, met an adorable vulture that walked with a swagger named Lurch, and eventually made our way back to the bus where I slept the entire ride home.

I didn't end up going to the Globe tonight, but I'm about to head upstairs to see what everyone else is doing. I leave tomorrow! It's weird! I can't believe I have already been here a month. Can't comprehend that. I'm going to miss this little room.

Oh god. I have to pack.

Days until I leave: 30
Times I've had Indian food: 9

65 comments:

Hannah said...

Packing is most definitely the worst part of any trip.

It's been really upsetting to hear about all the notsome things that have happened to you on this trip, but it's good that you have had good bits too. As long as you focus on the best bits, the worst bits will fade into insignificance sooner than you think

=D

Jessie Quinn said...

About the boy part of your post, I am sorry talking to Alex went rather badly. I definitely feel for you (I *know* you have probably heard this a thousand times by now), because I just recently went through a long distance breakup and I also had to change where I blog because I felt uncomfortable knowing he could be reading about how I was coping. In my mind, it was just too awkward.

Of course, I'm definitely not suggesting you should go out and get a new blog. No, no, no! I'm just saying I can relate to the ickiness of the situation. Hang in there!

As for the non-boy related part of your post, a castle and a maze! That sounds spectacular!

jenny said...

The castle and the maze sound absolutely fantastic. It's like being in a giant corn maze only cooler cause it's in England. :)

Glad you had fun!

seurat2 said...

THe day sounds really good, I love the maze story. And I would have liked to check out the library.

As for the rest, I don't think there is any doubt that you picked the best of the three shitty options. The only one that could turn out reasonably well, in fact. And I so hope it does. As for Alex, I don't hate the guy and he has nothing to fear from me since I was never subscribed to him anyway. I am disappointed in him, and expect to ignore his existence completely in the future. Seems like a reasonable enough reaction to me.

said...

I think lack of communication is one of the worst things that can happen to a relationship. He could have discussed it with you and ask what you though about it.

Where are you staying now? At Molly's?

The maze sounds awesome! I've always wanted to be in a maze.

<3

Olivia said...

Re boys: That sucks, Kristina.

Mazes are so cool! Very GoF and The Shining.

Emily said...

I'm really sorry about the boy part. That sucks. :/ I wish there was something I could say that could make you feel better, but I'm afraid I got nothing, so I'll just send along some cyber hugs.

As for the other part: Oh my goodness, that sound SO fun! About five of my friends and I are planning on going to the UK and Ireland next summer and I've been doing a lot of planning recently so we can know what we're doing when we get there and how much money we need to save this year, so it's been really super helpful that you keep posting about the cool stuff you've been doing! I promise, I don't read your blog purely for these selfish reasons, but I wanted to say thank you for talking about all the cool things you've been doing, because it helps me know what I want to do when I get there. :P Leeds Castle is now most definitely on the list!

Sydney Swift said...

i think we should all donate money and buy Kristina her own cute london pub.

now THAT is not a shitty option!

Sarah said...

I'm sorry that the talk with Alex went badly :(
Hugs to you <3

OH A MAZE! I love them. When I went to Disneyland in Paris there were this amazing Alice in Wonderland-maze in which I got completely lost eventhough it wasn't big at all xD
I'm glad you're having fun!

(And also, I've read your blog for months and haven't been able to figure out how to comment. Now, finally, I found out and it wasn't even hard. I feel so.... good.)

Eddy said...

The castle and maze sound awesome. I hope you have a chance to see more of Europe before you head back to the states. Just try not to think about Alex and have as much fun as you can before you come back.

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fashionWRECKx said...

I'm sorry that your talk with Alex didn't fly over so well, but unfortunately talks with ex's usually don't. I'm sure you know this though, as you are 21 and I am 16. I hate packing to leave. I love packing when I'm going like "Ooh yeah vacation" but by the end I'm usually bummed so I throw my stuff in there haphazardly. I really hope you have a really good rest of the week and please, have fun at SITC. I don't want to have to fly to England on short notice and make you have fun. (I'm totally willing to though xD)
We all love you Kristina.

HarryPotterNERDFIGHTER said...

Your blog has become a two parter. Sad Kristina, and happy Kristina.
As much as I LOVE happy Kristina, im glad you arnt hiding anything from us. Its like a proper friendship we've all got going here. Haha.

Sooner or later you'll be able to think of Alex without flinching. :)

That maze sounds pretty sweet.
And you'll have plenty of castles to look at in Ireland. And really gorgous Churches and Cathedrals. Its funny to hear of someone who hasnt seen a castle before when I see them so ofton, I should apreciate how old this part of the world is.


Kristina, I actually sometimes cant believe how you can be so awesome in the face of all this. You're so strong, and amazing.

Like seriously, much respect and love to you Kristina. <3

Freya.

aimée-louise said...

i just wanted to come over here and applaud you for how you're handling everything, kristina.
not only are you seeing the bigger picture - not wanting to waste an opportunity - but you really have got class; i wish i had half as much actually.
keep your mind on happy thoughts and the people who love you.
xax

Hailee said...

the maze sounded like an adventure in itself really, but i'm glad you stuck it out. because britain sounded amazing, and it's good to experience new cultures.
i remember i read this ad one time that said, "going new places, seeing new things, nowhere from home, it brings out who you really are. your strengths and your weaknesses. trying new things you would've never dreamed seeing/eating/smelling/going to back at home." that's what i think about every time i read one of your "english", (if you will,) blogs. <3

Katie said...

Yeah, I saw his comment on your last blog and I still think he might as well have left you stranded in London. What a lame boy for letting go of such an awesome girl. :\ You'll find better, for sure.

Mazes scare me but yours sounded like a cool experience! :)

<3

sparkletasia said...

I'm really sorry that London hasn't gone the way that you wanted it to. :( I'm glad that you're still finding ways to enjoy it here in the UK though, because it really is a fun place! Best Wishes!

RhianonLives said...

It must be so disturbing to know that he read your blog! Is that something he does very often?! I still don't think he was right to do what he did.
Yay, I love castles (mood swings anyone?). Here in Portugal there's gazillions of them, but they're mostly in ruins which makes them even more fun.
Glad you're not, like, "I can't wait to get out of here!". I was scared you would be... But I'm glad you're enjoying the ending of the course and all. Good luck ! <3

Krazy_4_Kelly said...

That really sucks about your boy problems, Kristina. Just remember you have a ton of people out on the internet that love you and want you to have the best possible experience in London in spite of your boy issues.

The maze sounds totally awesome and reminds me of the Triwizard tournament. Except without the portkey and Cedric's death.

Continue living it up and then you can come home and deal with your boy issues in the presence of your friends. And get started on your packing so you have tons of time to procrastinate <3

Cheers love!

-Sarah

but the name is Tarah. said...

It's so frustrating when boys think that there are only two extremes to choose from, when a girl sees a million different options that could have taken their relationship down a different, and possibly happier, route.

Hang in there, Kristina. You're amazing.

Eddy said...

I went to google earth and looked at the maze and it is AWESOME! If you were back in WA, I would take you to the maze at Bob's Corn and Pumpkin Farm in Snohomish. I know it's not the same, but I think it is one of the better ones here.

John said...

I agree you have had alot of notsome things happen but wait till you and Eia travel it will be so much fun I am going travelling for 1 month to Paris, London and Berlin.

What are your best finds in london that most people don't know about

muse88 said...

Break-up's seem to be playing a significant part in my life right now. Everyone I know IRL or otherwise are breaking up. And it sucks and makes me never want to be in a relationship. Ever.

But anywho.

What was said about Alex in your last blog was really not anything bad. It stated a fact, if not a complete one, but it was factual information. And you can pretty much say what you want on your blog. It's just unfortunate that you guys are both huge online and therefore this is a somewhat public break up. At the end of the day you're hurting and if you wanna say something say it. It's better to say it where he can see it than say something behind his back - whether it's bad or not, right?

I don't know if that made any sense. I just hope you's don't start to resent each other. And I hope eventually you both will be able to look back on your time together and appreciate the memories.

xo

Oletha said...

Just for the record, I'm not picking a side, I still like you both and it seems like he had his reasons but it's much more harsh on you because of being in a foreign country with people you've never met before and you were depending on him, so hang in there and try to put him out of your mind so you can enjoy your time here, even if you just let it build up and overwhelm you when you get back, at least you will have had a decent trip. :)

I was in one of those massive mazes once, a loooong time ago - I hardly remember it but they gave us a yellow flag on a big long stick to hold up if we decided we got too lost, and then someone would come and find us or give us directions or something. We never got to the middle though, because my mum and her friend were too stubborn to put up the flag. xD

JustMargaret said...

I actually really enjoy packing. Am I a freak? Yes? I'm alright with that.

As for Alex, I still never liked him and he's definitely NOT worth your tears/ thoughts. There are tons of awesome people who love you and care about your feelings and want you to be happy. Think about them, not him. :)

I went to Costa Rica this summer and we went to this park that had a maze! There was a tour in the middle of it too, but everyone was yelling instructions in fluent Spanish, and I only speak conversational Spanish, so it was easy to ignore their false advice. Haha!

Sandra D said...

first time commenter here. I have been reading your blogs, watching your videos for the past 6 months (sounds kinda stalkerish) and am really amazed at how awesome of a person you are. You would definitely be a person I would want to befriend.
Break-ups are always hard regardless of where you are but even more so because of where you are. just like everyone else we all are here for you. this is your blog about your feeling and thoughts you should feel free to express yourself.
I've had a bad experience with a boy too we had just moved in together and signed a year lease when things went south (he cheated) and I had to live with him for 2 months while I looked for another place to live. It was no fun seeing him with other girls. I have a feeling you'll come out of this way stronger than before.
So sorry this got long but I have been wanting to comment for a while and I finally got some courage. Have fun the rest of your trip and good luck packing!

uberfrau said...

Hey, I thought of something else you can do whilst in London-go on one of those london walks-they're really fun, and have different themes.
Also, have you been to the old tate yet? it's incredibly beautiful.

Rachael said...

Ah I have yelled faulty directions at my dad many a time from that tower bit in the Leeds Castle maze! :)

Shauna said...

Packing is not my difficulty, it's the unpacking that kills me...

I'm sorry things with Alex didn't go all that swimmingly but I'm so happy for you that you still get out there and enjoy yourself despite all the crappiness.

*hugs*

easygreen said...

Just want to preface this with: I have followed your youtube vids and your blog for a while and I've never really posted a comment on your blog, but lately I've been thinking about you and your situation a lot.

I know you are not writing in your blog for sympathy, but I'm sorry about the recent turn of events. I know you of all people can turn this crapmasacre into something great.

Just want you to know you are in my thoughts and I hope you have a kickass time in London (I'm so jealous). Best wishes...!

Jordiekins said...

I found the link to that shirt Kayley found! http://bit.ly/m2YfN

It doesn't say what she thought it did underneath.

Allison said...

That sounds awesome! I've only been in mazes that you can't get lost in at camps. :P I need to go to England!! I hope you took some footage while you were there, or at least enough photos to make a video like Hank's "Mules Are So Half-Ass."
I'm glad to hear that you and Alex at least talked about it a bit, hopefully next time you do it'll be better.

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hayleyghoover said...

I always feel a little dumb when I comment on your blog, because I could say anything I need to say more openly, honestly, and with more meaning on facebook (or the phone, when you're home)... but I can't pass up an opportunity to tell you I love you.

1 Star! <3

Gary + Cheeky said...

The grotto and maze sounds wonderous! I'll def check it out soon, hope the packing went well - eurgh if only we has minions to do it for us x

haleyw said...

OK.. first thing that is amazing about this blog..

1.The sprawling grounds, the willow trees, and lakes and the sheer old-ness of the buildings. <-- that is AMAZING! I can't believe you went to a castle!

2. THE MAZE!! That would have been so much fun, I would have gotten frustrated if people were yelling fake directions at me.. I am a very gullible person so I would most likely follow their advice, getting myself even more lost.

I am sorry talking to Alex went that way, and yeah there should be more than the two options that he put, but what can you do? Boys are just confusing!

But stick with it, you can get over this and you'll turn out better and stronger :) So. hang in there.

Have fun in England :)

-Haley

kira902k said...

(this comment is in reply to this post and the previous one.)

I'm sorry that seeing Alex went badly. I know you're trying so hard to not let him ruin SITC for you, and that's good. Sorry if this is weird of me to say, but I'm proud of you.
Just remember, time heals everything. Maybe it'll take a very long time, but one day you'll be able to walk around London and not feel any twinge of pain. I'll be able to sign my name in these comments and not feel guilty. (xD)

Now, as the random-internet person that I am, I have always been equally a fan of you and Alex. And I'm not going to start hating him because of this.
I do seem to be on your side here, but that's because this is really the only side there is for me to be on, because Alex hasn't spoken about this anywhere. (not that that's bad, I understand if he doesnt' want to share his feelings with the public.)

What I'm saying is I only know your side of the story.

Chin up! Lots of hugs!

Sarah said...

"There is no way I'm going to stay at his house."

Definitely. I don't really think this was ever an "option". I don't really know anyone who would do that...That would be really awkward. Just what I think. Oh, I hope I'm not being mean (because you say the commenters are nice XD. Which they are. I don't want to make that untrue.). :S But that's what I think about that.

But seriously, good for you for staying in England and sticking it through, instead of going home. That took a lot, really! You should be really proud of yourself for everything you've accomplished so far. I mean, would you have believed it if someone had told you you'd be doing this a few years ago? (Okay, you might have. But just in case the answer is "no", I'm going to leave that there.)

Anyways, that maze sounds amazing. Did you pretend you were a champion, like you said? No portkeys, though, I hope.

sarahblahblah said...

Kristina - I've been following your blog for awhile now, but I rarely comment on blogs. I love reading yours, and I think you are beautiful and strong for sticking it out and going to a foreign country boldy and independently. I wish I could travel like you do, sounds like you're having an amazing time!

KaraDawlish said...

I always read hayleys blog then i read your blog and on Hayleys i always leave like my own freeking mini blog in the comments. I dont know why my comments just always end up being REALLY long on her Blogs. And i sit here and struggle to write a comment for yours. I don't know why but i've never left a comment on any of your blogs and i just REally want to right now. So this is stupid... I have a picture on my picture wall with me you and alex at leakycon that says mr and mrs nerimon and now i feel wierd with it up there... Hm. I think you are both lovely people so that's what i figured it was just some kind of personality clash because i think you are both fantastic people with out a doubt. It was probably for the best that the relationship ended. I feel really stupid leaving this comment. Hope your okay<3 i have honestly nothing to contribute here though this commen is fairly long it has no point whatsoever. Sorry i'll leave. bye<333

KaraDawlish said...

I think you made the right choice and i really hope you can enjoy the rest of your trip!

^^^ That little thing was much more productive then the last one. Oi...

shay said...

I thought I'd share with you a conversation my friend and I had today via txting about you and Alex. (summary)

Me: Yeah, they're not together anymore.
Her: Why?
Me: I don't know, it kinda seems like Alex just got bored, or stoped caring.
Her: That sucks
Me: Yeah he's hasn't been acting like himself lately.
Her: Yeah his videos are weird, imature, and unprofessional.
Me: Definetly
Her: Kristina needs a hug.
Me: That's it were flying to England and magically locating her, and giving her a hug.
Her: Sure just give me a chance to pack a Nerdfighter tshirt, shoes, and all my Harry Potter Books.
Me: See you in ten.


Unfortunatly we were unable to fly out to England to be with you. Just know that we love you and send happy thoughts your way!

Chrystie said...

Kristina,
I just found your blog on here and was very happy to! I'm a fellow nerdfighter and watch you on fiveawesome girls and your personal channel. From what I see you are an amazing woman! All this boy drama sucks, i'm so very sorry. It sounds as though you're trying to move on and make the best of it which is all you can do! I know it's not fun, but I am amazed by your ability to cope. Even though you don't seem to think you're coping well, it sounds as though you are. At least better then some people. Just remember that you are made of awesome! Anyways, i look forward to hearing about the rest of your trip!

to_thine_own_self said...

Ok, so I realize I don't know either of you irl.
So I also realize I have no right to judge.
But I just have to say that I think it was really mean of him to leave you like that w/o a place to stay (even if he says he literally didn't, he did), especially when he stayed at your house for weeks. He didn't break up with you then when he needed a place to stay.
Whatever, though. You're a strong person, Kristina, and have really good friends that can help you get through this.
Plus you seem to be having good experiences in London despite everything. So just concentrate on that and be the independent, awesome person that you are.
=D

monkeyaround92 said...

OK- so, I read this a few hours ago, and there was something on my mind I had to say.
Kristina, look on your youtube account. As of 10:56 pm. pacific time, 24,738 people subscribe to watch you talk and just do whatever you want in front of a camera for 3-8 minutes.
They subscribe to you because in a way, they love you, and they love what you do, and how you do it.
I know this doesn't make your situation any less painful, but I think that we all want you to know that there are people out there who (although you may not know them) love you for who you are, and support you whatever you choose to do in this difficult situation.

Thanks for being so AWESOME!!
-Amrit (aka monkeyaround92)

nicole. said...

i feel sad that there wasn't much communication or TALKING about it. i don't think he's a jerk. i don't think you're petty. i just feel sad that you're sad. you obviously both have very different views on how he should have gone about this, but i guess such is life.
chin up.
cheers, love. xx

Vero said...

I think visiting a castle is definitely wonderful enough to make you forget your worries for at least a few minutes at a time. I love castles, and even though I grew up in a small town in Transylvania where there is an old castle built in 1310 right in the center (Cetate Fagaras), and lots of other castles in nearby regions (including the famous Dracula Castle = called Castel Bran), I still get a thrill every time I get the chance to wander through ancient hallways and touch objects that have seen times so different than ours...
Hang in there Kristina, heartbreaks also give birth to some of the most significant personality growths, and once you're out of the black hole left behind by the abrupt implosion of a special relationship - you'll find you're shining brighter than ever!

Caitlin said...

Being in a maze is something I've always wanted to do.

And I know how irritating it is when boys only see two options. It's like, they see something wrong and assume that they have to break up now, instead of talking about it and getting over this one little bump.

Also, I can't find my Sooty hand puppet, and this makes me sad. The rabbit is all lonely now. Thought I'd mention it.

Michael said...

<3

dylzodood said...

To the haters: Kristina didn't hate on Alex in her last post. It's her blog. A blog is a place where you're meant to vent out your feelings, and if people get offended or whatever, well that's their problem.

Haha, I went to a maze once. All I did was shout "CEEEEDRIIIIIICCC" about a billion times, and then I left. Oh and by the way - "center"? Come on, you've been living here long enough. :P

xD

Ravenclaw2313 said...

The castle sounds like it was an absolute bast! The maze would be a lot of fun, and so would shouting faulty directions at the others still stuck. I can't wait for some pictures to surface.

On the boy side; I think that you picked the best option. Staying will be hard but it will be better for you in the long run I think. Having to see Alex and be near him will suck but you will have to deal faster than you would at home where you could crawl into bed and none of this would exist. Be strong.

Cheers love. *hugs*

Emily said...

My boyfriend of 2.5 years broke up with me a little over a month ago ... so I kind of relate to what you're feeling on the whole Alex thing. Break ups are hard, I think boys just handle things differently. We want discussion and closure and the least amount of animosity possible, they want to forget everything and just push you out of their life as soon as possible.

I don't really have any advice, it's something you just have to get through, but I AM SO PROUD OF YOU for not letting a boy ruin your trip or taking the easy route and going home and missing out on your credits. You really are a role-model. Even if it is hard, you are still fighting to make the most of your London trip. It's kind of a mantra for life. Even when it's hard, you have to fight to make the most of it. I hope you enjoy the rest of your trip and keep us updated on your where-abouts overseas!

VicMorrowsGhost said...

So while your finding your way through a confusing series of blind turns in your emotional life you were finding your way through AN ACTUAL MAZE?!?!?! Weird. :\

Also one of my students looks just like Gregory Goyle from Harry Potter. I'm going to have to get a photo to show you.

SlytherinSweetie said...

Okay, first off I want to say, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I don't know you personally, but I'm so proud that even though the break-up kinda ruined your trip, you're still determined to have fun, live it up, and enjoy life's little things. That's amazing, I'd never be able to do that. The only thing worse than the actual break-up, is wondering how to act around him when you see him again. I really don't have anything else to say, so I'll just settle for sending a big pile of hugs aaannnnddd a virtual Chipotle burrito. XD

And omfg. A giant maze?! I want one! I haven't been in one since second grade. Ha ha.

~Kayla

Kkthenerdfighter said...

So first off the whole time I was reading about the maze I kept thinking Harry Potter, Harry Potter.

On the subject of the other thing... I am extramly confuzzled. I don't know Alex but as my friend, Shay, pointed out his video's have been different. And those two options are weird. My only real question is what happend to the guy who sang the Beatles to apolagize to you?

I can't say "I know how you feel" or something like that because I have never had a boyfriend. Unfortunately Shay and I can't fly to England due to some parental difficaulties and my flu powder seems not to be working. What I can do, is give you a HUGE virtual hug and say, Kristina, no matter what happens, DFTBA.
Kk The Nerdfighter

Devin said...

Hey Kristina! I just wanted to let you know how much I admire the fact that you can talk for a little bit about some upsetting boy-related stuff, and then switch over and tell us about your awesome day of sightseeing/mazing. I'm sure so many people couldn't focus on the good parts of the day like you did, and that's really really awesome.

Also, it made me, the blog-reader, not feel much too bombarded with upsetting news. Because, of course, your upsetting news makes me upset too!

love love love!!!

Martha said...

I hope you get tons of hugs at SITC. I know if I were there, I would give you one. (Wait, does that sound creepy? It sounds creepy, right? Crap.)

Foxy Roxy said...

Boys suck. It's especially hard when you go to the same University and see him in all your classes/activities and he acts like nothing's wrong. Jerks...Besides, I know how hard it is for you to now read your blog comments with his name in them, for that I'm sorry. Things will get better though! But dumb boys aren't worth my time talking over so I'm stopping that nonsense now :P I hope you still have fun at SITC! I'm expecting a vlog about it? Yes?

I wanna go to that castle!!!! :o Sounds like so much FUN!

Circular said...

I'm not going to lie and say it won't hurt, because you're going to be sad and down for a little, but you will emerge the strongest you've ever been. And with some help from your friends, some fun and nice talks, that name won't have an effect on you.

Stay strong, have fun and enjoy your time in Europe, because boy or no boy, you're gonna have fun.

I think I went to the castle and maze you're referring to when I was younger, and I had an amazing time, and sounds like you did too!

homeontheburrow said...

So proud of you. Years from now you will look back on this and understand the lessons. You have handled everything like a champion. You should be very proud of yourself.

April said...

Why is it that boys always seem to decide to break up with you at the most inopportune time? And by "you" I don't mean YOU, just in the general sense. All I mean to say is that I know EXACTLY what you're going through.

runswithwands said...

You know I think we have all been pretty respectful of the whole situation. I didn't flame Alex for anything and I won't. I agree YOU picked the best option of staying in England and not staying with Alex because that would have been awkward for all whether he offered or didn't is kind of irrelevant and that's what I think. I know what it's like to have a broken heart and you need a place to vent and don't stop just because he doesn't agree, because as a reader I don't think ANY of the venting you have done so far has dragged his name in the mud. That's just my opinion and you both can take it for what it's worth. I definitely think you have class Kristina! Cheer up and try to have fun the rest of your time there. The maze sounds AMAZING.

Hilary said...

Can I kick Alex in the balls? Seriously, I want to hurt him. You deserve so much better, seriously. An email? How ridiculous is he?

Packing is not fun. I just did that for college last week and freaked the whole time. And still forgot things.

And I'm terrible because when you said "Maze" my mind went: "Just like in Goblet of Fire!" I need to get a life much.

The Gray Mouser said...
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The Gray Mouser said...

Thought the message would be clearer if I had just shortened the comment to

Grow a pair, Alex.

That way, Hilary can kick 'em in.