Wednesday, August 19, 2009

more stuff.

It's laaate and I should be going to bed, but I want to keep up my blog. I don't want to forget parts of this trip, even though it hasn't been the greatest lately. Thus, sleep gets the axe.

Today we had guest lecturers in class (we have them all week actually) and they're all varying degrees of interesting. I haven't really had my mind on class much for the last week or so, but I think I've decided on a topic for my paper anyway, so I don't think it'll affect me much anyway.

After class, Jazza came to my campus. It was really, really nice to see him.
I haven't seen him since I dropped him off at the SeaTac airport after his 12 day stay in Seattle back in November of last year.
We haven't really spoken much this year, which is weird because of how close we used to be. But I needed to talk to him about things and he was wonderful, so I was thankful that he was willing to come all the way to Eltham to see me. :)

A bit later, we hopped back on the train to head into central London, where a sort of spur-of-the-moment gathering was taking place. I only knew I was meeting Jerry, his girlfriend Fawn, and a few other random people. I was not prepared for all the people that I got to meet today, haha.

We got to... I dunno, some station, where Jazza and I met up with Dave (blueskies Dave! I was so excited to meet him!) and SophieBeard and Ian-something and Charlie - no idea I'd be seeing Charlie today. :D We walked around a bit before finding Jerry's group - there were too many people there to name but among them were Tom Milsom and Gary with the Cheeky puppet and a nice boy named Zack (Zach?) and a few other people whose names I knew but had never met or known what they looked like (like Hatti and Tino and ... I'm bad at names, I'll just say other people who were nice).

We hung out in a pub for awhile, and Jazza introduced me to ginger beer.
Then we were all going to go to Wagamama (I don't even know if I remembered the name right) but then we saw the prices -- woah. Jerry, Fawn, Tom, Hatti, Tino and I hightailed it out of there and after a while of being indecisive, were ushered to the upstairs of this Chinese place against our will. The food was - eh. But we had fun anyway. We all got water but Jerry paid a 1.20 for ice and a straw in his. Apparently it was better water or something, but honestly - it's water.

It was actually kind of an uneventful sort of gathering, looking back, but it was nice to get out and do things with people, even if it feels a little strange right now.

I realize I have been kind of vague about a lot of things in this blog lately. I got quite a few comments from people that mentioned my being a bit down lately, and I want to assure you it's not from being away from home or traveling or living out of a suitcase or homesickness or any of that. I love traveling. I love being away from home. I love gathering new experiences.

I'm dealing with some personal issues but I'm not really ready to talk about them yet. It's affecting my ability to be able to have as much fun here in London as I'd earlier anticipated. But I am amazed, yet again, at the number of amazing people I have in my life who are always there for me right when I need them.
Molly, Emma, Jazza.. to just name a few.. have literally saved me this week.

Anyway, next big plans for London is a night out with Rosi and Emma. I feel like I am neglecting my school friends here a little, but I am so happy to be with people I know and love right now. :) I need it.


Anonymous said...

Lovely one!

Take care of yourself. I know it might be weird but I'm here for you if you do wanna chat - I know it sounds random talking to a stranger but sometimes a stranger is just what you need because if they give you rubbish advice you just don't talk to them any more or something like that.

Massive hugs!

theresa said...

Chin up, Kristina,
remember there are a whole lot of people out there all whishing the best for you (though we only know about you what you share with us via blog or youtube, and just imagine how much we'd like this beautiful and talented girl, if we actualy knew her!!); It might be little comfort right now, but times will be better some time soon.
Tell your friends they're supposed to hug you for every single subscriber^^
Take care, you wonderful!

Oh and I am so jealouse of you and jazza being friends ;)

aimée-louise said...

hey kristina ^_^

just wanted to share some much needed love; it's the very, VERY least i could do as you always keep me and everyone else entertained with your made-of-awesome blog.

have you ever read, 'don't sweat the small stuff... and it's all small stuff' by richard carlson. if you can get a hold of it, do. because it's really helpful: gives you a completely different perspective on things.
note: i am in no way saying that what's happening to you is small stuff, not at all.

keep looking for the silver lining.
much love.

x aimée-lou x

Stefan said...

be a vague as you need to be. lots of people love you and are happy to have whatever part you are willing to give.

all friends have a bit of pecking order and random online people are obviously pretty far down on that list.

stay strong... and have way more fun then you currently seem to be having. Not only did I never study abroad but I definitely didn't have a place to go where I knew so many people. I am infinity jealous.

Anonymous said...

I was going to write a heartfelt comment, but then I saw that my captcha code was 'hymen' and because it is nearly five am, I have spent the last ten minutes giggling.

In any case, I have a massive pile of hugs waiting for you.


Deanna said...

Feel better Kristina. :)

Trans-Atlantic Internet Hugz.

HarryPotterNERDFIGHTER said...

Kristina, just tell us whenever you're ready, and know that we'll be here to listen.

I was ondering if you're still coming to the Cork Gathering? If your personaly stuff gets in the way thats totaly understandable, but it'd be lovely to meet you.

Hope you feel better soon and have fun with Rosi and Emma.


Joy said...

Sorry to hear that things have been not so great for you lately, but I'm glad that you have been able to have some good times with good friends...

And I totally respect you being vague about what is going on - just because you share your life with the internet doesn't mean you HAVE to share your life with the internet, or share everything about your life.

I wish I had something to say that would help you feel better - but things that people say (especially when coming from strangers) so often are cliche and really unhelpful.

So, just wanted you to know I love reading your blog and hearing about what you're doing - it's seriously something I look forward to doing. :o)

Elly said...

Hey, if life wasn't shitty in parts, nothing would be good because we'd have nothing to compare it to :)

Chin up Kristina :)

Ravenclaw2313 said...

Glad you are loving traveling and that the "meet up" was so much fun.

We totally understand your need to be vague. Sort things out your own way and when you're ready tell us or not. Until then *hugs*

VicMorrowsGhost said...

I'm glad you've taken the time to write an entry I really enjoy reading about your adventures (misadventures?).

Indian food, friends, the internet and a dash of Potter can see you through most anything.

Hang in there mate. <4*

*It's one better than <3 :D

Kasey said...


Sarah said...

Still sending good thoughts your way and hoping you feel better soon ...

That's awesome that you are seeing lots of people and having fun! Do they expect you to do tons of schoolwork, or just a few big papers at the end?

Krazy_4_Kelly said...

I'm sorry you're upset, Kristina...I hope you start to feel better soon <3 You have a lot of awesome people you can rely on it seems like so that helps. Your blogs always brighten up my day even when you're a bit down. Things will get better soon =]

Elizabeth... said...

I wish I lived closer to London so I could be one of those random faceless youtubers to give you someone to laugh with.
No one can force you to say anything you don't want to which is the great thing about having your own creative control.
I just wanted to add to the comments to let you know that I'm sending a virtual hug too.

ALSO I've been listening to Pretty in Pink (and Green) all day and it's been awesome. <3

Amber said...

I have a feeling it's something to do with Alex because he hasn't been mentioned at all...

If so, that really sucks. =/

We love you Kristina.

Olivia said...

Hope you feel better soon, Kristina! *hugs*

Ginger beer sounds interesting.

Sarah said...

hi :)
I just wanted to say that even when you're sad you find a way to brighten my day. Sometimes it feels like a really bad day and then you remember that a bunch of people would do anything to help you be happy!

you don't have to go into detail about anything on your blog if you don't want to (since it's your blog!) :) so don't give it a second thought.

x0brittx0 said...

i've noticed over the last few entries that you haven't talked about alex. i hope it's not anything to do with him but if it is just remember that boys are substantially less cool than England is.

it'll get better. promise promise.

RhianonLives said...

Hey, you don't owe us explanations! If you're not ready to write about what's going on in your life right now, then that's what's best for you and it's what you should do! Just know that all of us, strangers as we may be, love you lots! (Wow, now that I think about it, that sounds creepy xD).
And whenever you're feeling down, at least we're here to cheer you up, spend ten minutes of our days to share with you <3
Enjoy & feel better =)

seurat2 said...

I know your friends will make you feel better, they are uniformly awesome. Whatever is causing you problems right now,my wish for you is that it gets better soon.

SlytherinSweetie said...

I know I'm practically a stranger, but I hope things work out. Be as vague as you want to. Anway, I send tons of hugs!! ^^


Kristen said...

I agree with everyone else, be as vague as you want. The pieces that you do share are awesome and I know we all appreciate it! So here's a blogger-to-blogger url transcontinental hug to you (yeah...that makes sense...) I completely understand about having friends around when things aren't so great. My cousin is my best friend in the world and I don't know what I would do without her! Have an awesome weekend!

captcha: popingl....a pringle that pops?....a poping penguin?, yeah that one!

John said...

I was in a bad mood today in a funk and I just wanted to say thanks cause the only thing that made me smile all day was Love Song for Professor Lupin.

So since you made me smile *Hugs* Hope you get through your isses and just remember your readers think your awesome!!

Rivvy said...

I don't know if this will cheer you up or not, but I just wanted you to know that you uplift so many people who watch your videos and read your blogs.

In fact, you have inspired me to fulfill my lifelong dream of going to England, and I booked a trip for next June. I've wanted to go since I was 10 and now I'm 28, so 18 years is a long time to wait! I see a lot of parallels in personality and circumstance between us (I'm also from Seattle, had many long distance relationships, total Anglophile, etc) and just realised that if you can do this, so can I. :)

I really hope that didn't sound creepy because it wasn't meant to be! haha

Anyway I just wanted to let you know that personal stuff sucks and it gets in the way, but try to only let it get in the way in places where you wouldn't have fun in London in the loo...or in the shower. You are on an amazing journey that so many people wish they had the opportunity to go on! Don't just enjoy it for yourself, enjoy it for the rest of us who are dying to be there but can't right now!


Anonymous said...

Hey, Krisitna, I'm really sorry things aren't going as well as you'd like them to be going, but I hope they end up better than you expected <3 *hugs*


Focus on the good things, love :) You met so many people (Molly and Jerry for instance) and you have to make the little things count. Hope you cheer up and sort everything out :) <3

Jordiekins said...

Dear Kristina,


P.S. Stick with the people who are always there for ya. I've gone through some stuff and if it weren't for my friends, I wouldn't be alive. Know that if you ever need anyone to talk to, your blog readers will be there. Stay strong, have fun.

Anonymous said...

I totally agree with everyone else. Don't feel obligated to share it with us until your ready. We all really love you Kristina, your truly awesome. Also, you always inspire me to do things whether it be watching all the seasons of the Office(which I am now obsessed with, totally blaming you) or going to England(I'm going next summer! :D). Your an awesome person and I hope you get to expeirnce England the best way possible. We all love you.
:) Best wishes!

Ariel said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling down.
It always cheers me up to see a new video or blog post from you, and just for that I really do hope things get better for you.

Jerry Cooke said...

It WAS better water, haha!

Plus, I totally selflessly gave you half my ice, being a gentleman ;)

Really was an uneventful gathering, but it was great to see you! <3

Anonymous said...

I know I'm kind of late with commenting, so I don't know if you'll still read this, but I (and all your other faithful blog-readers) am here for you. I know that might sound weird coming from a total stranger, but just know that there are people who care for you (all your friends, and all your strange fans.)
We understand if you're not ready to share what is happening with you to us yet, don't feel pressured to do so!
Just remember that you are in England, surrounded by friends, and try to enjoy it. :)