Well, I have spent one night up in Edinburgh and I've already had more fun than I've had on my entire London trip.
On the one hand, it's really nice to have a fun and exciting weekend away in a great city with my best friend.
On the other hand, it's actually depressing me a whole lot how much better Eia's Scotland program is than my London one in every way.
They all live in this big fun flat right in the city with a central living room for everyone to hang out in whereas I live in these stupid little dorms on a campus about an hour out of central London.
Her program is smaller so she's already really close with everyone while mine has so many people who are always off doing different things so I haven't really made too many CLOSE friends yet.
They have class in their living room for two hours every once in awhile where they talk about the shows they're seeing in the Fringe Festival and different themes in storytelling and stuff, we have excruciatingly dull class on public health for 4 hours a day, 4 times a week.
They have seen tons of weird shows and hung out at all the cool pubs and clubs and restaurants... we cant do much in London because we have class until 3 and everything closes at 6, but then we cant do much night-life either because only so many trains go back to Eltham each night.
She's experiencing Scotland... I honestly feel like I am having a UW experience that just happens to be in London.
Gah. I'm just feeling a little bit cheated.
We're trying to work out our plans for September, after the courses end, but it's all really complicated and I'm frustrated because of money and planning and making sure I'm keeping busy so I don't think too much about everything else.
I know everyone was really excited to finally hear from happy-Kristina the last few days but my life is a roller coaster right now - the most un-fun, nauseating roller coaster and pardon me for being cliché but I am so tempted to just jump off it and book a flight home. I'm not going to, because I am a stronger person than that, but I wish being a strong person didn't also mean resigning myself to experiencing some of this stuff by myself, know it's okay to let yourself cry (I'm so SICK of crying) and pushing yourself to get up and do things despite feeling miserable.
Today I am going to spend a day in Edinburgh and I'll deal with everything else later.
My next obstacle is finding a printer and a fax machine or scanner because I have some forms I need to get to people. WHERE am I going to find that here? I barely even get wifi.
I miss Emma and Rosi.
Days until I leave: 33
Times I've had Indian food: 6
didnt even notice
18 hours ago