Tuesday, March 31, 2009

sunny disposition.

I have SO MUCH to do in the month of april that it's not even amusing.

I am in the process of recording two albums, classes started yesterday, I'm trying to seriously clean out my room and get rid of things, and I have to learn to driving a fucking manual car by May 1st.

I was all ready to jump in head first on Monday, but then my train wreck of a life happened, and I literally did nothing yesterday but cry and feel sorry for myself. And sign up for a class to take the place of Japanese 113.

I need to find some quick way to leave all of that horrible stuff behind and just get motivated quick because these are all things I NEED to do this month and I can't let obstacles get in my way.

Right now I just feel moody though.

Lauren is wonderful, she can make me feel so much better even when my life literally collapses in a single text message. Parselmouths wont be the same without Brittany. Wizard rock wont be the same without her. But I dont have to stop, and I have so many wonderful friends who immediately stepped up to help, which made me feel so overwhelmed with love I cant even explain.

I feel ... I don't know. I have two classes to go to today. I don't have to work afterward. I am going to run the errands I meant to yesterday, return the books I already bought for Japanese, send the emails I was supposed to... after my minor delay, I am going to just... push through.

Also I sent a grumpy email to Alex this morning and I feel badly.
I dont like being grumpy like this. It reminds me of being in high school and I much prefer sunny-disposition-Kristina. LET ME HAVE A SUNNY DISPOSITION, LIFE.


robotnic said...

I hope this comes across as helpful rather than nosey or something, since all I know is what you write in your blog posts... buuut I'm in a long distance relationship too and it sucks to leave, but honestly, the best way to get out of that funk is to throw yourself into everything and anything you can. Keeping busy is the best thing you can do, even if it seems overwhelming at first. It's the last stretch before summer!

Everything you have planned sounds so exciting! I hope you have a great month =)

Nicola x

Exhausted College Student said...

My roomate's dog tried to have me impale myself yesterday. I'm serious. It's a long story. It's on my blog if you want to know the story. It might cheer you up a bit. :)

Jordiekins said...

I have a question:
Can alex talk to snakes? and doesn't he play guitar? hmmm.

Manda said...

Hey Kristina.
I relate - I have had several of those days where you have heaps to do and you know you have to just get over yourself and do it ... but things just keep piling up and you just don't want to move.

Last year I was doing my honours year at Uni and had a 15,000 word thesis to write. My Granddad died, my Mum got breastcancer and my Grandmother tried her hardest to die .. oh and my sister got pregnant. It was a lot to deal with and still I had to write and do stuff ... and work... but I got there. You'll get there. We have awesome friends. Not to mention you have Alex Day who, might I say, can be very sunny indeed.

-manda (a random viewer who will not show up at your door lol... poor famous you lol).

Hakeber said...

Awww I'll help you learn stick. I've taught like 3 of my friends. I'm a pro stick shift instructor :D

brookerochelle said...

hi kristina,

I don't know you very well (only what you tell me through vlogs and blogs) and you don't know me at all, but i just wanted to say hi and have a wonderful because we all need a little push everyonce in a while. :)

lovethetube said...

I hope life begins to get better for you soon! Also, driving a manual is okay you will get used to it :) Well done on winning the ford fiesta movement competition. Sorry to hear about the parselmouths too, but i think that it will still be awesome with you and eia, i am looking forward to hearing new songs when they arrive :) Rachael x

Mimi Meila said...

I understand the grumpy part because I am in highschool and all of my "friends" don't ever invite me to things so I just sit around at home. Your awesome, and you'll definitely get through anything life throws at you!

Maddy said...

I'm really sorry to hear that things are not going well :( You are a wonderful and talented person and I really hope that things start looking up for you soon :)

Lauren said...

I love you a lot and I'm here for you whenever you need me, love. Glad I could make you feel a little better. :)