On wrapping a season and waiting for summer

It's a strange life I lead when I look forward to Mondays as though they're the start of my own personal relaxing weekend. Whatever errands, odd jobs or deadlines are thrown at me during the week, they're not as much work as a weekend of shooting, that's for damn sure.

This Monday, however, comes with a particularly bittersweet sense about it, since yesterday wrapped principle photography on Season 1 of Job Hunters.

To be fair, we already have a few pickups we need to shoot to really say the season is wrapped, but those scenes are short, they wont require a full crew to finish, and mostly contain individual actors. The giant, weekend-long bonding style shoots are finished for this season, and though the promise of free time on the weekends is sweet, I can't help but feel a pang as I think about not being on set again for months.

I know there are tons of groups out there doing tons of different projects, and oftentimes those projects can feel like something extra-special, a cut above the rest, better than real life. I know this isn't a unique feeling, that Job Hunters didn't invent it, that our bonding has been no more "incredible" than any other group of peoples' time together - but I do love that we as humans can still convince ourselves we're the first persons to feel the way we're feeling about a certain thing we're doing.

Job Hunters really has felt that way. There really is something extra-special about what happens when we're together, what we're able to create, the fun we're able to have -- and maybe it's no more unique than anything else out there, but it feels that way to us. And that's what makes it special.

Last night we insisted everyone go out for drinks at the bar that's slowly becoming "our bar" - the shoot ended around 8:30, and even though people were exhausted, I think it's really important to allow ourselves to unwind together, to remember we're friends first and a production team second. I am so, so proud of the work we've done in this past year, but I am even more proud that we've grown closer  as a group of friends - not letting any sort of creative differences wedge its way in and cause tension. There's none of that with this team, and I hope it stays that way for a long, long time.

I'm not sure what I'll do with my free time yet, now that we're mostly in pre-production. My talents are definitely centered in pre-production and the actual on-set aspects of this project, so now that I have weekends free and am not constantly coordinating extras for this insane last few shoots, maybe I'll have time to read books again. Or start running more regularly. Or start an entirely new project!

Though, we all know it's more likely the Producers will instead jump right into Season 2 planning. We're all dying to do it anyway. :D

Every morning I wake up here in Seattle and am amazed over and over again how much it feels like summer already even though it's only May. I am looking forward to this summer so much. I know I've been nauseatingly radiating positivity for the past 6 months, but it's like I've been waiting for summer deep in my bones, like I've just been itching for the weather to match my mood.

Well it's almost here and I couldn't be happier.

Taking a second to breathe.

This has been such a crazy few weeks. I would apologize for not making time to sit down and document it, but everything has been going by so quickly that it's almost been a blur. I definitely feel like I have been a little detached from the internet (especially with vlogs on my main channel), but from moving to the new house, to getting back into the thick of filming Job Hunters, to spending time with my friend Clint before he moved to Georgia - it's been a whirlwind of a month.

Let me try and backtrack. I am still fresh from having taken a good friend to the airport this morning, but there's a lot more to this story that I've bypassed in the Most Miserable Attempt at BEDA™ 2012. (MMAB)

On April 29th, 2012, I moved out of my college home of 3.5 years, Mammoth Caves. In honor of the occasion, we threw what we hoped would be the most epic of epic parties housed there on April 28th. I suppose you never really can top a Halloween party, or a Night Zero party, or even a birthday party -- but we tried our best. It was pretty awesome, all things considered. At the very least, we celebrated one last time in the house we loved with people we love and left it in a state we were proud to pass on to the next set of Mammoth Cavians - well worn and a little stained with booze. The night ended with a laser light dance party and culminated in a bunch of tired, slightly drunk people crashing on the floor of my already-emptied old bedroom.

And then there was House 2: Hypercube.

I've only lived in this new house for 9 days as of 11:11 AM on May 8th, as I sit here writing this long-overdue blog post. It already feels so ridiculously like home though. My bedroom is amazing and perfectly and totally me, the kitchen is modern and fancy and the living room just begs us to have fun times within its walls. And the best part is - everything is so CLEAN. Since having moved in we've already had friends over for a make-your-own-pizza party, as well as hosting both a Game of Thrones night and an Adventure Time afternoon marathon. I love living in a house that so obviously welcomes friends and encourages fun. House 2: Hypercube does not disappoint.

In the grand scheme of things, everything is going really, really well in my life right now. I'm eating healthy, I'm feeling creatively fulfilled and challenged, I constantly feel like I am surrounded by amazing people, I'm living with my best friends. People seem to like my web series. People still comment nice things on my videos.

But. Yesterday we had a going away party for a relatively new friend named Clint. It was one of those situations where an awesome person sort of tornadoes in and out of your life in much too short an amount of time, but I'm glad for it nonetheless. The party was fun - it was simultaneously the first BBQ of the year, the first time pulling out a frisbee since the weather's gotten nice - and - most importantly, the first time I won a game of beer pong. Aw yeah.

It was a great way to unwind and share the nice weather with great friends, if you could ignore the underlying sadness of losing an important member of your social group the next morning. We ended the night with one last Adventure Time Power Marathon, but I can't shake the disappointment I feel at not having been able to finish the show with the person who introduced it to us. Eia and Dave and I (the crew that's been watching it) will have to finish on our own. I guess.

Despite that blip in the positivity (is that a word? I like it, either way) of my life, I am really excited for the new leaf I feel like I am turning over with the move into this house. Nothing big is really changing, but I feel like I am truly adopting the slow adaptations that have been infiltrating my life since last summer, when I decided not to move to LA. Weirdly enough, I feel like that was an even bigger life step for me than moving would have been. I had to make a lot of tough decisions. But I am extremely happy with them, and I can't wait to show off my new house. Expect a house tour video in your sub boxes today or tomorrow. :)

BEDA 4: The Art of Moving.

Wow. So much for doing "Blog Every Day in April". I'm not even ashamed; the time went by so quickly. Just... wow.

So, I had the beginning of a post all typed up from awhile ago, and it started like this:

The time between signing a lease on a new house and actually moving into it is the stupidest time I've ever experienced. I can't think of a better word to describe it than "stupid".

I spent this morning looking at furniture on Ikea's website, and then I started going through my things to try and get rid of stuff, but doing that just makes me want to start packing. And I'm not moving for 3 weeks... so beginning packing now means I'd just be sitting here with all my stuff in boxes for no reason for the next 20 days.

SO I HAVE TO JUST WAIT. I hate waiting.

Now it is April 17 and I am just over a week out from moving. I would say I have about 30% of my stuff sitting in boxes, and the rest is just waiting to be packed up so I can transfer it over to the new house. Saturday we (meaning the girls; Justin tends to get left out of this particular aspect of moving) took a group trip to Ikea to buy room and kitchen items, while getting ideas for how we want to decorate the living room. It was super fun in an incredibly over-excited way - we kept running from section to section saying "Guys! OMG! Look!" and "Do we need this?" and "I really think we need this!"

Our front door is lime green so it kind of went without saying that our kitchen will match accordingly. I've never even realized how many lime-green accessories there are out there until we really started looking for them. We bought green hot pads and utensils and a rug and mixing bowls. We also pondered over a giant lime-green pantry, but that's something we're still making our mind up on.

My room is going to be a combination of blacks and cranberry, with teal blue accents. I bought a new lamp, and a ornate black mirror and a throw pillow and a trashcan. The most exciting part of this whole moving process is also getting to decorate a bathroom, so I headed over to Bed Bath and Beyond last night and decided on a silvery shower curtain with a sequined design on it. The towels, trashcan and rug are all aquamarine blue.

I can't wait until I can move all my stuff over and start taking pictures to show you guys the new place and all my decorating ideas and whatnot, but alas. One more week. ONE MORE WEEK.

Impatience levels are high here at Mammoth Caves.

Tomorrow we're posting Episode 2 of Job Hunters, which will be a fun and exciting distraction from my own inability to wait for things. We're also filming this weekend, which I am so stoked about. It's been a few weeks since any of us have been on set (Emerald City Comic Con, Easter and Greek Easter really threw a wrench in our production schedule) so everyone is itching to get back into character, to see everyone again, and to crank out some more of the remaining episodes.

Let's see, in other Kristina News from April I also started watching Game of Thrones and the Walking Dead - both of which are awesome. We're only about 5 episodes into GoT, but with the Walking Dead I managed to marathon into early Season 2 last weekend with a bunch of friends. It got to the point where I was having nonstop post-apocalyptic zombie dreams, but given the nature of TWD, the dreams never actually included zombies. Only the high-intensity off-time with the other survivors, scavenging for food and trying to figure out "what's next".

So, yeah. I am completely failing at BEDA this year, which is a total first for me. But I haven't moved houses in over three years and I forgot how much time it takes up and how much you have on your mind constantly -- things like writing blog posts get pushed to the very back.

I'll be around again sometime soon. I always am.

If anyone has any good packing/moving tips they'd like to share, please do so in the comments!

BEDA 3: Job Hunters release day!

Haha, whoops. Missed a day. The funny thing is, I totally opened up blogger yesterday and STARTED writing something up, but then clicked away -- and in the excitement and bustle of the day, I never went back to it. So here's what I started typing yesterday, Wednesday:

"Well, today is exciting.

I am sitting in my living room with other Job Hunters producers on either side of me, Chipotle in my tummy, and 200+ comments on the first episode of the web series.

So far people seem to really like it! I mean, there are the few standard "this iz jus a Hnuger Games ripoff" and the "u guyz can't act" comments, but honestly, for the first episode of a brand new show, we seem to be doing REALLY WELL.

The best part for me personally is to see how excited and proud the rest of our team is. Everyone's posting facebook comments and twitter statuses all over the place full of exclamation points and smiley faces, and it's making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, because it wasn't that long ago that this project only mentally belonged to four people. Now there are so many people who take ownership over it, and it's the best feeling."

Now it's Thursday morning, and I'm super tired because Eia and I stayed up until 5AM talking like a couple of dummies (this of course being after we were over at our friend's house until after 3 hanging out and watching Adventure Time). I don't have a lot more to say, except that yesterday was awesome, I'm glad people seem to like our web series so far, and it's actually incredible how behind I feel in life right now.

I am completely out of the swing of making regular videos so it just feels a lot harder making them each week, I haven't even started on my Answerly video for tomorrow, and knowing that I'm going to have to start packing to MOVE soon (and that the whole process is right around the corner) is vaguely terrifying.

It's just a busy time right now. I know everything will sort itself out. I'm just feeling very fortunate that it's all positive stuff going on right now. That's a style of busy I can get behind.

Oh, and also, I tried the Cheesy Dorito Gordita Crunch from Taco Bell last night. So, like I said, good things all around. More tomorrow, when I'll hopefully feel like my brain is on straight again.

BEDA 2: Thoughts on leaving Mammoth Caves.

Alright I can't promise this is going to last all month, but here I am already, back for BEDA post #2. It's funny - I'm so incredibly busy right now (Job Hunters comes out TOMORROW guys) that the idea of writing a blog post amidst all the crazy actually sounds kind of... calming. It sounds nice. So BEDA has come at a good time of year for me, as a way to clear my head and document all the awesome stuff happening.

Yesterday I talked about Emerald City Comic Con... today let's talk about moving. And how I am doing it.

For those of you following along at home, my current house is called "Mammoth Caves" and I've lived here for almost four years. I moved here in 2008 when I was a junior in college, because it's walking distance to my college. Eia lived with me here for 2 years before moving out and leaving me her super huge bedroom. This is where I met Justin (who in turn kind of introduced me to almost everyone I hang out with now), and where we've cycled through so many amazing (and not so amazing) other roommates.

The time has come though, to leave it behind and try something new. I can get weirdly emotional and attached to inanimate things, and the houses I've lived in definitely fall into that category. It took me a long time to really feel like it was time to move on, but once I started feeling those inclinations rising up in me, it sort of became an obsession. I started checking housing rental sites every single day, I went to about 6-7 viewings of potential houses, but nothing felt right.

Until a few weeks ago. I just happened to find this house, in almost the perfect location, but that's not even the best part. The best part is that it's one of those super modern cube houses.

Now, whatever you're picturing when I say "super modern cube house"; take that image and make it even cube-ier. Seriously. And that's my new house.

We're moving at the end of this month (which will be another awesome thing to document and yet another reason I'm glad BEDA is happening right now) so the next few weeks are not only fraught with Job Hunters excitement, but will also include insane amounts of packing and the transition to the next stage of my life. Moving into "House 2: Hypercube". :D

Anyway, being that it's the morning before the official launch of my web series and we're about three weeks out from moving to a completely new house, I'm filled with all this nervous/excited energy and it's nice to have a place to focus it. As soon as I finish this entry I have to go get work done that I know I wont touch at all tomorrow in the hustle and bustle of releasing the show, so it makes me a little sad to end this post. But I have to, so, I'll see you tomorrow!

BEDA 1: Emerald City Comic Con wrap up.

Well. It only occurred to me today, on April 2nd, that I have already missed the first day of BEDA (Blog Every Day in April) should I so choose to participate this year.

BEDA, you're one of those things I know I really don't have time for, but despite that, I find it so hard to quit you. So I guess I'm gonna try it. Or whatever. We'll see.

This weekend was absolutely incredible. I'll probably just sort of glaze over everything because I am way too exhausted (and a little hungover) to really delve into extreme detail. Essentially, this weekend was Emerald City Comic Con. It was my second ECCC, but definitely far surpassed last year's in every imaginable way.

Friday was the most laid-back day; we went to a panel on web series and then spent the remainder of the day poking around the vendor room, buying enough art to almost completely decorate our new house. Then Liz, Ariana, David and I went out to dinner before heading over to the Hard Rock Café for Kracklefest. Adam Warrock (a nerd hip hop rapper) was great as usual, I had the pleasure of finally seeing Marian Call perform live, and Kirby Krackle rocked the place down. I got to jump up onstage to sing "Comic Shop" with them, making it the first official time we've performed it together. I know I really shouldn't be singing right now, but it was the first time I have performed live since VidCon last summer, and it was just one song. So it felt good.

The only downside of the whole day was that at the concert, there was this couple that wedged their way completely in front of David and I and then wouldn't stop making out with each other. At one point the girl was even licking the guy's face. We tried to combat the awkward by inappropriately moshing with only them during not entirely mosh-worthy songs. It didn't help.

Saturday started early. We went to Wil Wheaton's 90 Minute Awesome Hour (contradictory, I know. He's just that awesome). We wandered around a bit after, looked at costumes, got our photos taken at the Night Zero booth, then went to another web series panel. A bunch of us bought dice sets (a few of our friends were picking out their very first ones!) and as it grew later, we decided to call it an early night. My voice was already kind of going, and we wanted to be rested and fresh for our Job Hunters panel the next day. So we went out to dinner at Azteca and headed home - before I think would traditionally be considered "cool" for the Saturday night of a con. Which is fine, because Eia, Ariana and I just snuggled and watched Buffy at home. :)

Sunday was seriously one of the best days I've had in a long time. We started the morning with the Summer Glau panel (she's adorable and so genuinely sweet!), which fed directly into the Adam Baldwin panel. He's so hilarious. One of the highlights of the panel, also, was when my dad went up to ask him a question in the Jayne hat I got him for Christmas. I had a pretty proud nerd daughter moment then. Anyway! Next was the Phelps twins (Fred and George Weasley) panel, which I was only able to catch about 15 minute of, because we had to race over to room 2AB to prepare for the Job Hunters panel. I only started getting nervous about 5 minutes before we went on, which is pretty standard for me, haha.

It went so well, though! Myself and the other three producers spoke a bit about the show, but then we jumped right into showing episode 1 to the crowd. People seemed really receptive to it! They laughed in the right places, and I got a lot of incredibly sweet @replies on twitter about it over the course of the rest of the day. The Q&A went really well after, as well. It was such a rush, suddenly being in front of a crowd talking about it after keeping it under wraps for so many months. It makes me super stoked for Wednesday, on the official release date!

After our panel we hung out at the con a bit longer, getting more pictures taken at the Night Zero booth and taking in the last of the con. It ended at 5pm, so everyone headed over to my house for the post con party we decided to throw. It was no hotel party, but it came pretty close. I spent a lot of this weekend sort of overwhelmed by how much I have grown to love all these people I've spent the last few months working on Job Hunters with. Even though we were being silly and drinking and dancing, I couldn't help but stop and sort of revel in how much hard work we've done together and how awesome it feels to celebrate that with each other.

I have so many other things to talk about, but I will save them for tomorrow!

My begrudging attempt to be healthier.

Oh man. I haven't updated in a long time. I had to just go check what the last thing I actually wrote about was (finishing BSG, if you were curious) in order to figure out where I left off in my life updates. So, okay. Over a month. Let's see.

I'm sure this comes as no surprise to anyone, but I've primarily just been up to my eyeballs in Job Hunters stuff. We've officially passed the halfway mark with filming, which is incredibly exciting. We're premiering our first episode this weekend at Emerald City Comic Con, and then posting it online for its "world-wide launch" the following Wednesday.

It's a little nerve-wracking to already be posting the early episodes while we're still working on finishing the late episodes, but we'll get there. We're still on Season 1, and it's all an experiment. :)

Other life news includes the brain-crushingly infuriating process of house-hunting. Some of my friends and I are trying to move (I absolutely love my house and the location but it's time for a change of scenery) and HOLY CRAP moving is annoying. I've been scouring house-hunting sites every morning, emailing and calling realtors, scheduling appointments to view houses. But over and over again, either the houses are too weird, too small, one of the bedrooms doesn't have a door (seriously), too close too the freeway. Or on the flip side, the house is PERFECT but the realtor decides to give it to a nice little family rather than a handful of creative-minded twenty-somethings. Come on. So it's been a headache.

To sort of.. ease that process, I've really been trying to make other positive healthy life changes. Not in a "oh look at me, I exercise now" kind of way. More in a "dangit, my mom was right all along, exercise and eating healthy DOES improve your life" kind of way. So I've been experimenting with running (which sucks) and cutting out super unhealthy foods. Actually, I started a strict 80/20 policy for myself. I'm never going to entirely STOP eating oreos and cheesecake and McDonald's french fries and brie cheese slathered all over crackers. So I decided if I eat healthy 80% of the time, it can sort of excuse the 20% where I eat like a 5 year old.

I always hated cooking in general but I've been playing around in the kitchen a little lately, which is totally foreign to me. Rosianna inspired me to eat more veggies and salads via the deviously delicious ingredient quinoa. I've found that cooking with quinoa or cous cous actually makes boring old vegetables and salads something totally good-tasting and exciting and filling.

I also made my first casserole the other day. I've never made a casserole before. Now granted, this was a tater tot casserole and wasn't healthy by ANY stretch of the imagination, but I was proud of myself for being inventive with the leftovers I had from my night out at the AFK Tavern when I brought home half an order of +2 Tots.

Anyway. I find that people can get REALLY annoying when they start being all "HEALTHY!!@!12" and telling everyone how awesome they are because of how "HEALTHY!@#$#" they're being, so I'm probably not going to talk about it a lot. I just wanted to share, that this is what I've been (attempting to) do with the time I haven't really been blogging. It's hard work, man. But as annoying as it is, people really ARE telling the truth when they say this stuff helps.

Can't wait to share Job Hunters with you all, and I'll hopefully be back more quickly than last time with my next update!

Musings on the end of BSG (no spoilers).

Oh man. I don't even really have time to be updating my blog right now, but I can't help myself. I have a million things to do today (we're starting filming again tomorrow and there's always a mile-long list of things to do before our shoots) but I am in one of those crazy states of mind that I feel like I just need to capture.

Last night I finished watching Battlestar Galactica.

I'm a big, big fan of television. I'm all about the intricate storytelling, the breathtaking visuals, the actors so good at their jobs that it makes you feel uncomfortable to remember that they're real people with lives outside the show. That many (if not all) of the people on Battlestar Galactica have probably never actually shot a gun, have never been in space, have never met a real Cylon.

Each time I finish an incredible show, I have a really difficult time letting go. Good storytelling affects me in ways that I can't explain, ways that make me feel for a little while like there will never be anything as good ever again.

But, after Lost, there was Doctor Who. And after Doctor Who, there was Buffy. And after Buffy, there was Battlestar Galactica. Each time I let another show in, I feel like the bar gets set even higher, and new shows keep surpassing my previous expectations for how good television can get.

It's getting to the point where I can't even rank my favorites, but Battlestar will always have a slot near the very top of my list. I can't even explain in words how deeply I fell in love with this show, and even though it's over now, it will always be there in the back of my mind. Kara Thrace, Admiral Adama, Laura Roslin, Lee, Sam, Sharon, Gaius, Six, Helo, Hera, The Chief... they're not going anywhere. Just like every other great tv show and book and movie that's ever affected me is here to stay, so are the characters from BSG.

I am experiencing that perfect mix of slightly hollow yet completely satisfied now that it's over, and I feel so fortunate that I get to celebrate the ending of this wonderful TV series with EMP's Galactibash tonight. Perfect timing. Nothing makes me happier than to see slightly older fandoms still so relevant today, and I can't wait to party it up with the other BSG fans out this evening.

SO SAY WE ALL!

Job Hunters induced exhaustion.

I am working through levels of exhaustion that are unprecedented for me - today is most definitely going to be a non-work day. Except for the Job Hunters production meeting we have planned for tonight; but that's just going to be mostly talking. I can handle talking.

Thursday we had our final acting rehearsal/workshop for the first weekend of shooting. Friday night was pre-production meeting and tech night. Then we started shooting bright and early on Saturday. I arrived to set at 7:30 AM, and everything was pretty much nonstop from there, going until midnight and starting again on Sunday at 8 AM.

I am blown away by the incredible cast and crew we've managed to put together for this production. The entire weekend, I think everyone was sort of reveling in the perfect balance we were able to find between professionalism and fun. We powered through so much of the first 3 episodes in those two days, it was insane! The raw footage I happened to sneak peaks at looked amazing as well. It really is mind-blowing to think back over all the stages of this project - dreaming up the idea, fundraising, writing, casting, set building, etc. - and to see it really coming together now, before our very eyes.

So, again, I am exhausted. I'm fully dressed (in a pink sweater and matching pink hairbow a la 'Galentine's Day' this morning with my gals Liz and Tara) but I am tucked into my bed, catching up on email and blogs and twitter and everything I have been ignoring for the past week as my brain was in Job Hunters central.

I can't wait to do it all again next weekend, but for now, it's good to relax. I have a lot of Battlestar Galactica to watch with Liz and David this week. I. Can't. Wait.

I feel very off the grid right now, so I figured it was a good time to give a little blog post update. :)

Obligatory 'I Suck at Blogging' blog.

I have been absolutely awful about blogging so far this year. (We hear variations of this sentence a lot on this blog, don't we?)

One of the things I decided to really work on in 2012 is saying 'no'. I know, it sounds like a pretty negative thing to work on at first glance, but that's just it. Saying 'no' isn't always about being negative. It's about being realistic.

It would be awesome to just be able to say yes to everything. Yes, I will meet you for lunch! Yes, I will make video-snippets for your new video series! Yes, I will check out your channel! Yes, I will reply to every single email I receive! Yes, I will skype with you for the next hour! Yes, I will write a book! Yes, I will produce, act in and write this web series! Yes, I will go to your meetup! Yes, I will clean my room! Yes, I will stay caught up on all the new TV! Yes, I will say happy birthday to your cousin who's a fan I've never met! Yes, I will read that book you sent me! Yes, I will start going to the gym! Yes, I will promote your cause! Yes, I will do a giveaway for your product in my videos! Yes, I will go to your party! Yes, I will attend that convention! Yes, yes, yes!

Unfortunately, someone who says yes to all those things (and the hundreds more yesses people want from us on a daily basis) would, without a doubt, start to go absolutely crazy before long. One thing I've really had to just accept in life recently is that you can't do everything. You can't.

I like saying yes to everyone. I like helping people, I like being there for my friends and I like being in involved in new things. But sometimes it's just physically impossible. And finding that limit can sometimes be a lot harder than one would think.

So I tried it. I said 'no' to a video project I was offered in early January. It was scary, and I almost caved and did the project anyway - but, once I said no, I was overcome by how easy it was. So not only did I start saying no to other people, I started to find a few ways to downsize a little on the current responsibilities I already arbitrarily have for myself. Even the basic act of keeping up with social media is exhausting. Having multiple YouTube channels, Twitter accounts, Facebook, Tumblr etc etc etc. It's so much! There are ways to consolidate!

Don't be mistaken - this is not about saying no to EVERYTHING. That is bad. That is not what anyone should do. Learning to say 'no' doesn't mean holing up in your room and becoming a hermit; doing only leisurely things whenever you want. I'm talking about balancing your yesses with your nos, making sure you're focusing on the things that really matter to you and not letting your time get tied up in too many projects/responsibilities/commitments/etc.

Look at it this way. If you say yes to enough people, eventually you'll find you're only helping them make THEIR stuff happen. Nobody's going to check up on you and make sure you're working on your own stuff, too. And when you're super busy... there's no one to answer to when it comes to your own stuff. So that's often the first to go.

What it comes down to is, you have to balance. Allow yourself time for YOU.

While still helping others when you can.

So. I told myself, it's not a big deal if I don't post more than one YouTube video in a week. I absolutely adore blogging, but it's been tougher lately, trying to figure out how to do regular updates when I'm working on so many things I can't actually fully divulge on. So my blog got to take a back seat as well. I realized even scheduling weekly live shows was too much, so I put them on hiatus. Answering questions on Tumblr? Those can wait. Right now it's web series.

Clearing out my schedule in these small ways has really given me the extra time (and sanity) I've needed to throw myself into Job Hunters. I don't think I've been this dedicated to a single project with a group of people since high school theatre. It's a pretty amazing thing.

I am bursting at the seams wanting to tell you guys every little detail about it, but it's also kind of fun to have it so under wraps. Everything else in my life is so public - my music, my trips, my thoughts and ideas, even past relationships - I'm so used to sharing everything with you. This is exciting, new territory for me. I can't wait to just surprise everyone with the final product.

We've been doing pre-production all month - my main responsibilities have been coordinating with our costumer and makeup artist (costume shopping is SO FUN) as well as final script revision and whatnot. Today we had a set building work party, but my friend Molly and I were sent on prop scouting. I wont pretend we didn't get a little distracted at a giant thrift store though. I may or may not have purchased a Lizzie McGuire cookie jar. Um.

So, yeah.

Hey, loyal blog readers. I hope you've been doing well. I want to thank you guys for sticking around even when I'm not giving you much in the way of 'entertainment'. YouTube videos in general have such quick turn-around time, but trying to pull off a production of this magnitude... I've really felt like I've gone into hiding, and it's strange for me.

I just hope no one minds a little bit of radio silence while I continue to work silently over here on the biggest project of my life, so far. :)